Painful day

Today has been an interesting one. I woke up this morning and I was stiff as a board and hurt so freaking bad that I couldn't move. So when I was able I popped some pain meds as fast as I could. After getting up and moving I felt a bit better but I did notice one thing. The lump infront of my chest where they did the biopsy at was starting to swell up pretty damn good. Obviously I have been icing things down when I am able and that should do the trick. The doctor said I am not supposed to lift anything for a while which makes me doing my job impossible since I work in a warehouse. I went it this afternoon for about 4 hours and let me tell you that that was no a bright idea by any means. My chest and shoulders hurt so frigging bad. This time through with cancer the pain sure is worse or I am just a bigger wuss now than I was before. Either way it has sucked. I am going in to work tomorrow and trying to earn some hours since I am going to be out a days worth this week and whatever next week. The spot where I had my first biopsy is starting to heal up but I was starting to hurt in that area again and I found 4 more of those things. I am not happy about that but then again atleast we know that it is basically nothing can't be removed. Overall I am doing pretty good right now very little pain at the moment and just in a pretty good mood. I am currently listening to the new Jakob Dylan album and I highly suggest people take a listen to it. If you are a fan of The Wallflowers then you should like the disc. I am really looking forward to this weekend. It is the Brewers/Twins party weekend in Milwaukee. It will be good to see some of my friends from Minnesota and Eau Claire and cheer on their respective team while drinking fine Miller products. It will be really nice to get my head away from all of this mess. Especially since I am pretty damn sure that I am going to be starting my chemotherapy rounds on Monday. I am guessing they should have gotten the results back today. That assumption is based off of the first biopsy in which I got the results the next day. I am hoping that it is nothing at all. How awesome would that be? Yeah a small miracle but you never know. I just keep hoping that it is a germ cell tumor. I just want this all to be over with. To say that there isn't a nervousness or some type of strain on me would be pretty asinine for me to proclaim. I have freaked out pretty bad a few times but everything is better now. I think a diner and talk with my friend Michelle really helped me calm down and think about a ton of other things that are pretty hilarious and just happening in each others lives. It was really nice and she is a sweet heart! Well that is all I have to say at the moment. I guess I hope tomorrow gets quite a bit better and I get good news!

The picture I have posted below is of my friend Wendy and I during the Second Rock Cancer Out show in Minneapolis.