Sabathia time!

My friends Noah, Bill, and I went to Milwaukee to witness the CC experience in person. Noah bought the tickets and got us 4th row right off of first base a bit. If any of you were watching I believe it was the 8th inning when Mike Cameron fouled off a ball it landed two rows directly behind us I am just too short for that reach but I gave it a whirl in case it bounced, but yeah Noah and I were sitting right there and you might have noticed a bald head gleaming in the Miller Park light and you guys already know who that sexy feller was. Miller Park was simply besides itself with CC fever. He had to have gotten atleast 5 standing ovations and I thought pitched pretty good with all of the hoopla going on. Also to answer some questions that I know I will be asked. Yes I did get myself a Sabathia t-shirt that will get pretty worn out over the next 4 months. I just have to keep working on trying to find a cheap Hart jersey.

Today I also went to the doctors office to get my chemo and check up. I got yelled at because I apparently had an appointment to get blood tests taken that I never knew about. I ignored her completely and said maybe next time even though with them there won't be. That is because tomorrow morning I am heading out hopefully bright and early to go to Minnesota. I also must tell everyone that I didn't have a peachy time in the office at all either when I was that. They tried to use the port that was installed to draw blood but they couldnt get anything. When they ran saline in it to clean it out I could feel it go into the back of my neck and start popping a lot. That is seriously really scary and completely annoying. So the entire afternoon my neck has been cracking. I also felt really nervous today about receiving my chemo treatment through the port and so I made them stab me with a needle to run it into my arm. That didn't work out great either. They couldn't hit anything in my right arm a few times and got it the first time in my left. That was actually pretty amazing because all of the doctor I have ever had could never get my left arm at all. The dosages I had for the oxycodone and oxycotin have been upped as well because of all the pain I have had recently. When I told her what I had to take for it to go a way for a while she was shocked and changed dosages so I don't have to take as many pills at once. She also asked me if I have noticed any changes in anything and when I told her that the tumor has gone down a lot already she nearly freaked out saying,"that is unbelievable after one treatment" Then I explained to her how it was and the thing I have changed in my habits. Then she said it might be helping out my situation. I also asked her if I should going to work out more since this is a blood type of cancer and she told me it would probably help me out a bit more. Which is good because my friend Chris got me a 30 day pass for LA Fitness and we will be work out buddies hahaha. At the moment I am pretty tired but I think that is from the game. I did feel nauseated a bit on the ride down but I get terribly car sick if I don't drive and I have always been that way. I also had a talk with a rep. for Xango Mangosteen juice and he just wanted to hear my story and if I think there are any effects and I think there has been. I think the pure anti oxidants that it carries has helped break it down a bit and the arthritis in my knees is almost nonexistant. They are doing major studies with the effects of cancers and mangosteen and kind of want to follow me through everything since I am pretty early on at the moment. We will be in contact with each other and see how things go.

Last night I went out for a bit with my friend Michelle who is a sweet heart. It is really good to know I have a few people that I know that have been in and out of hospital for somethings other than detox or accidents. She understands things because she has diabetes and just the way things are when you have to constantly deal with doctors and meds all of the time and that is really reassuring for some things. The ine thing she did say to me that really gave me that fire again was when she flat out told me that she has no worries about me in this situation because of my attitude and strength. Some times I think I am too honest about this situation and that is what leads me to get down a bit. Being a 2nd around kind of helps and makes it harder mentally as well. All I know is that when I get through this thing I am buying a lot of drinks for people (within reason) and I am thing of changing things up in my life. My doctor said something to me before about this cancer being a product of ones lifestyle. What does that mean? Do I need to find religion/God? Quit the industry I work in because of all of the toxins and freon? I don't really know. I must admit to everyone that I was pretty athiest maybe agnostic of sorts after my first battle with cancer, but I did pray one day just to see if anything would happen and not even a week later is when all of this pain started to happen in my chest/shoulder. That was in March I think. Maybe it is a sign and if it is why would it be full of pain and heartache? I guess those are things for me to decide some day down the road. When all of this pain turns the person I consider to be the stronger person I know (grandpa Nuoffer) into a nervous wreck and saying that it isn't fair to his pastor it gets me nervous and worried all in the same. he has been through a lot over the last few years and this isn't something he should worry about at all. I feel that way about a lot of people that I know that were pretty shaken up by this all over again. Well I seriously don't want to continue to write about this stuff in this sense because I want everyone to know of everything that goes on here in hopes of maybe someday this blog being a way to help others out. I truly do appreciate the things everyone says to my father out at work. He does relay all of that to me. The people at Gustave Larson that I used to work with and currently do. Then my friends are completely rediculous this time in checking up on me which is awesome considering I think most of them were really scared about everything the first time. If you were in my situation you would understand that when I write this thing I look back at all of the people that I met throughout the years whether it was briefly or a dozen years and how everyone impacts the way one is and handles things in their lives. I am the first person to say my friends made me the raging, stuck up, arrogant, asshole I can be and it is great and I glad they did.