Been a while

I must say sorry for the delay on any blog I haven't written in the past week or so. As nearly everyone knows I went to Madison last weekend, but what happened Sunday night put me out of comission for a few days. I just walked in the door and started to put things away from the weekend. I started to feel kind of chilly so I went and put on my hoodie. Then my head started to throb and I felt really really sick. It was almost like the flu. I went and took my temperature and I was already at a 100. I went and layed down in bed. I was pretty much like this until Thursday morning. I had a temp. right at 102 for 4 nights in a row, I couldn't make it up the stairs without stopping to rest or catch my breath, and I was not able to sleep more than an hour or two at a time. My lungs hurts so bad during the whole thing as well. Traci kept telling me to go to the hospital and she was going to take me if I told her I needed to go but I am stubborn and that wasn't going to happen. I did decide Wednesday night that I was basically going to sweat this thing out. I wrapped myself up in towels and covered up in 4 heavy blankets. It was pretty gross and the outcome was fantastic. I felt like a million bucks Thursday morning. Almost like I had not been sick at all. I do think it was the double chemo dosage that made me that sick because I had those same effects when I was on my first type of chemo. I wonder if they gave me that type again? They are both the same color out of the bag so who knows. She did ask me about my MUGA scan again though. So just maybe they did give me the old stuff. Either way it sucked terribly four nights. As of recently I am starting to get really bad mouth sores. They are so annoying and hurt. I have four of them at the moment. My feet and hands are pretty bad too. They are getting red easily and my feet just flat out hurt after a short while. I just try to ignore them as much as I can.

This was another fun weekend. Since I was feeling better I went to Madison again to party and help cheer Bucky on to victory. It was good to see friends again and talk to people I haven't seen in a while. My dad came up and helped drain a barrel even whooped some ass in flip cup. Now I know where I get my talent from. The Badgers did give everyone a scare in the first half of the game as well, but then Bucky reared back and lit them up for 51 unanswered points to continue thier dominance of non-conference teams.

As for this coming week I have a few doctors appointments. Since I was sick last week I had to reschedule with the plastic surgeon for Wednesday. I thought initially this was going to be the most important appointment I was going to have but the surgeon performing the splenectomy is the more important one. After I read up on the procedure to remove the spleen I found out it is a pretty risky one. There is a high rate of infection and a chance of blood clots. Obviously those are two things that can lead to death quickly or a long battle afterwards. At moments I have to wonder what I am getting myself into, but what choice do I really have. I seriously hope that everything goes smooth. I am due for something good and easy to finally happening in this whole battle. I have to think that I am just worrying and readying into things to much. My biggest fear obviously is not coming out of the surgery at all. That is in the back of my mind everyday leading up to the 29th. For every surgery I had before it never was but because of the magnitude of this one it is worrying me a lot more than what I remember about before the open heart surgery. I am terrified and hopeful all in the same.