6 days out

That is right I am six days out from my surgery date. Tomorrow morning I have to be at the UofM for a PET scan to see if the tumor has shrunk anymore and to see if there is anymore action going on. After that I have to run up to General care and get my 3 vaccines to help with infections and sickness after the surgery. The I have to run back downstairs to meet with Dr.Maddaus the thoracic surgeon. I am meeting with him because I want to make sure that everything is a go and the other doctors are on the same page. It didn't really hit me until a little while ago that I am getting so close. Especially since I have waited so long to get to this point. I have that little anxiety tingle in my stomach and it is really annoying. I just can't believe that in seven days I am going to be in full out recovery mode. I am ready to get started with the recovery and hopefull end of my cancer battle. Just to remind people that this surgery doesn't mean I am cured of cancer. This is a shot in the dark. I know this will finish my fight with this crap. I know it. Anyways, I am going to have a full day of junk tomorrow and I really hate doing all of this crap. Why can't people have their shit together the first time and schedule everything right in a row. I hate driving back up there all the time for stupid crap that should have been done the first time. Other peoples stupidity is other misfourtune. Isn't that how it goes? So yeah back to this six days out thing. I am really going to be busy this coming weekend. I do hope to take it easy though atleast a little bit. I can sleep after surgery. hahaha. Friday night I am going to the Twins with a few friends and probably over to Gluecks afterwards for buzzaroeke. Saturday is going to be super busy I am going to be checking back into the Hope Lodge with my folks then probably a bite to eat. I have to be at Club Underground around 4pm for the Benefit that Chris put together. I am really looing forward to seeing everyone who comes out and the bad ass bands playing the bill. Sunday will be a chill day but the Packers are on so I might watch the last game for a while with the Green and Gold crew. Who knows? I am pretty much going to be playing everything by ear. So much to do and so many other people involved. Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday I will be in the gym doing a ton of cardio to get my body a bit more in shape for the upcoming journey. I am still pretty scared about the whole thing. I mean the doctors told me that they have a general idea about what they are going to do when the open me up but don't have a deffinate plan until they see what is going on. You tell me how calm you would be in this situation. I am holding it together pretty well for the time being and I am sure I will lose it Saturday night at some point. When you're name is the reason people are coming together to raise money what do you say? Thank you just doesn't cut it with me. It is a level of appreciation beyond normal gratitude with me. It is hard to let others understand what I am saying. This whole experience has shown me personally that I have some unbelievable friends, strong family and family friends, and there are just great people out there that don't know you at all and they I would like to call the randoms. This journey so far has pointed out who my really close friends are and those who are just nobodies to me now. I want to point out one person in particular who has really shown and told me what true friendship is and that obviously has been Chris Peters. Beyond the normal friend call of duty and I hope that if the table were turned I would do the same for him. I am a big name dropper when it calls for it and this has been warranted. It has been quite amazing. I also wish I could have been at the Janesville benefit last month. That still really bothers me a lot. There is another Kareoke for the Cure set up at my favorite bar in West Allis(Milwaukee) Jimmy B's. I grew up in that bar and if you don't believe me ask my parents, grand parents, or Kevin the bartender. I believe it is set up for Oct. 25th. I myself have been kind of a flake during this whole thing and have used it as an excuse for a few thing. When I caught myself being a jerk and milking it I cut it out real quick and have went back to my standards of working hard and making things look easy. Lets hope I do the same during this recovery. They culdn't keep me down when I have the open heart style procedure. It would take most people three days to get them to walk to the door from their beds and I was up walking around the hospital. Nothing can stop me for getting to the point that I want to be at.

The music update continues. I did buy the new Avenged Sevenfold disc that is unreleased stuff from their last two albums and a live DVD from their Long Beach performance on the Taste of Chaos tour. The unreleased tunes are so good they are basically well polished stuff that they didn't have enough time left on the album to put them on it. The DVD is awesome and totally captures the band in their element. I saw them in Milwaukee this past winter with J-Riv and they were pretty freaking sweet then I saw them back in last fall when I was in So.Cal. at the Warped Tour. They are a great live band.

This is the live version of Afterlife from the DVD

This is the music video you can see how good the two guitarists are because they don't miss a note live